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[20 Mar 2005|06:56pm]
[ mood | annoyed ]

I made a new lj, it will be friends only.

If you're added on here, you'll probably be added on there. Maybe.

dellaxlove  is the name.


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[20 Mar 2005|02:44pm]
[ mood | crushed ]

I just got put in a really blah mood. I'm so glad to hear my ''best friend'' pretty much hates me. I try and keep everyone happy, yeah..it pretty much never works. I don't know what much else to do. There are only about 2 people in my life that i trust, love, care about, and would die for..her being one, and it seems like everytime I try and fix things or get close again, I get shut down with remarks and comments. Should I not try anymore? I know I'm not the perfect person, I know I'm not the nicest person, I know I'm not the most loving and caring person...but I do what I can and I just wish you everything would be fine. And everyone would understand everything. But instead, nothing is fine and nobody understands. The more and more I read, the more I feel alone. I don't know what to do at all.



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[19 Mar 2005|09:29am]
[ mood | in love ]

Everytime I see him, things only get better. I didn't mean to make him cry, I love him so much. And while we lay together cuddling in the backseat of his car, I just think about how perfect he is, and how lucky I am. I slept in his shirt last night, and it'll be hard for anyone to try and get me to take it off. He owns my heart.

You look so pretty with my skin touching yours
You've only got eyes for me now. You've only got time for me now.
You've only got eyes for me now and you know how blind I am without you
The angels hair is cutting lines across his cheeks
With all my strength I make him love me
He tastes like summer and smells like romance
He breathes no throat song chorus but I move his lips to form the words "I love you"
I taste his lips and I know he loves me


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[18 Mar 2005|08:35am]
[ mood | veryyy sick ]

I've seen like 4 people doing this...so I guess I will too.


im sick and boredCollapse )

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[17 Mar 2005|11:15pm]
[ mood | still sick ]

I'm awake...can't sleep, once again. I talked to Kyle until he fell asleep, now I'm online talking to my wifey, Brittany. Her boyfriend is in the hospital from 2nd and 3rd degree burns...she is the bravest person I know, for real. She had to watch him stop breathing a dozen times today...

Tomorrow my entire day will be spent with Kyle. I can't wait, he makes everything better, always.<3

I'm still soooooooo sssiiicccckkkkk. BLAH!
I no likey being sick.

I'm watching Without A Paddle, so I'll write about tomorrow, Saturday.


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on the count of three, everybody over dose [17 Mar 2005|09:10pm]
[ mood | anxious ]

My tomorrow will be better then yours.

the end.

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I want to celebrate! [17 Mar 2005|10:20am]
[ mood | sick ]

Happy St. Patricks Day<3

Even though this is one of my favorite holidays, I am very very sick. I barely have a voice and my throat is very scratchy. :'(

Today I'm getting my hair colored, wish me luck.

I'm going to see Kyle tomorrow:) Just what I need. Wow, I miss him.<3

I'm going to go take down some disgusting medicine and sleep until my hair appt. maybe I'll update laterrrr.
Or something.


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two zero zero zero eight one one five eight two [16 Mar 2005|10:08am]
[ mood | bad ]

I haven't gotten to talk to him as much I would like to lately...=/
I felt bad last night...we talked for a bit and he started getting tired and almost fell asleep, I don't want to wear him out. School then work then girlfriend. I don't know how he does it, and he is still as perfect as ever. I think I am seeing him Friday. I need to really bad. I just hope he knows how much I love him and miss him<3


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[16 Mar 2005|09:34am]
[ mood | amused ]

So...last weekend was eventful and I've got the pictures to prove it.


the fuckiest pictures aroundCollapse )

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grindinggggggggggg [14 Mar 2005|09:09pm]
[ mood | tired ]

I am finally home now, finally got to hear him again. That comfort is like no other you can imagine.

Friday- Got up very early, and went to Brittnie's. Texas Mike and Laura had gotten there the night before and Denise was on her way. We got ready and stuff and headed down to Newport. When we got there Dee, Amber, Gabby, and Josh were there. It was so cold, you can't even imagineeee. Introduced Texas Mike to the first ever United Dairy Farmer (UDF) that he'd ever seen..walked around...waited for the show.

The show came, Gym Class did awesome as did The Academy boys, but we knew this would happen. Everytime I see them the crowd gets better and better. Midtown went on and right after their set, i check my phone...got a text from Stacey (don't ask me why) asking ''where are you''...I didn't know what to think, so I told her...and later found that was a mistake. Basically they started a bunch of drama and shit and ruined a lot of that night for me. Thanks.

After the show, stayed at Brittnie's.

Saturday- Not much exciting stuff happened...I got sick and puked my guts out during the FOB set. Felt bad for calling and crying about it to Kyle.

Sunday- Woke up...same'ol same 'ol...went down to the Intersection, and I got lost in Michigan trying to find a bathroom. Two guys were being assholes and wouldn't leave us alone. Got to wait inside.


Show was great.

Afterparty was my favorite. Adam got so drunk and Mike was already. All I remember Mike saying is ''SANTI". Bill was drunk, too, and all his emotions came storming out. He went around to me and Laura and Brittnie and Liz and told us all something special and he was crying. We were all crying.

Today- Cried at goodbye.


Pictures from this weekend will be up soon. I promise, they are awesome too.


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[14 Mar 2005|08:19am]
[ mood | tired ]

We're still at Laura's right now...getting ready to go catch our greyhound home.

I've been missing him all weekend...and now I'm missing these loves.

I hate missing people.

When I get home is when the big update comes.

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...pull it [14 Mar 2005|03:38am]
[ mood | emo ]

I'm so sorry

tonight i am one big case of emo.
im crying over everything.
god, im so sorry...

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im the biggest inconvienience ever [14 Mar 2005|03:17am]
[ mood | sorry ]

as ive been gone he's updated lots. i feel like the worst person ever and that i shouldnt even be granted life, im so sorry

tonight was so emotional. then i came home to nice messages from people telling me how much they hate me and want to kill me and hope i die...etc etc

big update tomorrow when i get home, im still in michigan. BIG update.

i am the worst person to walk the earth.

i miss you so much....i cant even to being to say how sorry i am....
i love you.
forgive me...

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[10 Mar 2005|08:01pm]
[ mood | cheerful ]

One month today.
I, honestly, couldn't ask for anything better.
I love you more then you will ever know.
And I miss you just as much...

Tomorrow, Saturday, and Sunday will be awesome. I will get to see everyone. Laura and Texas Mike are coming up, and Liz is coming and a bunch of Columbus kids will be there and of course..me and Brittnie.

I probably won't be able to update for...hmm..2 daysish, or something...like you care.

I'm going to talk to you tonight on the phone literally until I can't open my eyes anymore. I love you and I miss you...and I'm going to miss you more while I'm away.<3


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lesbians attack [09 Mar 2005|02:45pm]
[ mood | geeky ]

Yesterday, Brittnie and dad, came to pick me up and we went to his house and ate and sat around for like an hour listening to old Motely Crue, waiting for the show. haha. Dad had Julie's crutch and was singing into it and acting like it was a guitar and, yeah it was the funniest thing ever.

We drove to the Shott. Center and sat in the car for a little bit while Julie and Dad drank like 7 beers each (this was after they had already drank like 5 each at home) haha...we had fronr row parking, by the way. Dad was proud of that. Brittnie and I sat in the back and took pictures of ourselves, duh, and Dad's like ''i gotta take a piss''...so he goes to the side of the building and asks the security gaurd if he can go in and use the rest room, and when he comes back out he is glowing. "I just met Vince Neil, he shook my hand, and he put his arm around me and touched me right here *pointing to his shoulder* I'm never washing this hand again. All four of them were standing there, I met Motley Crue''. I swear, any second he was going to have an orgasm. Berta and Chris got there and Brittnie and I had to cram in the back that is small then Hell and had sooo much shit in it.

Then we went inside.

We got our seats and such and we thought we saw Mikey Ponder. The show startes at 8:15ish and lasted until ilke 10:30 only Motley Crue. There were girls in bondage type outfits, like, having sex on the stage. Brittnie really liked them and said she wanted one for her own. There was also a migit clown guy who was creepy and RIGHT when he came out Brittnie like clasped onto me. She was like, deathly scared. Tommy Lee did a drum solo that was really good. We saw a lot of boobs. And they closed with a remake of the Sex Pistol's ''Anarchy in the US''. Great stage show, great.

We went home with Arin and Jeff since they live in Groveport and were sober.

Went home.

Called him and felt bad that he was barely awake and I felt like I was waking him up.



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[07 Mar 2005|08:14pm]
I'm sorry.
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. [07 Mar 2005|08:00pm]
[ mood | uncomfortable ]

i look forward to a good cry.

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think outside the bun [06 Mar 2005|08:23am]
[ mood | awake ]


I just love you that much :) Spent all night with the boy that means the most to me

[Show at Bogarts]-Plain White T's


two weeks never sounded s far away...

[edit] AND HOLY CRAP- NEXT FRIDAY, SATURDAY AND SUNDAY WILL OWNNNNNN<3 foo sheezy I'm defintely not missing these shows.
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no, please [05 Mar 2005|12:02am]
[ mood | worried ]

Tonight something happened to Brittnie at the academy show...I don't really know a whole bunch about the situation..she called me, and I called her mom and I called Denise and told them. She said that she think she broke her ankle...I'm terribly worried. =/ Last I heard from her, she was on her way to the hospital.

[edit] i guess everything is okay with Britt now, whew.


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Don't pity me, kind sir, please [04 Mar 2005|09:26am]
[ mood | lonely ]

Write me something fake. Something that won't matter if I ignore or not, those are the ones I like. Baby, it wasn't a false alarm you're in for the long run now. Forget everything they told you about me. This isn't an act.

I have been getting these sudden states of ''blah''ness lately...it's so strange. Nothing is wrong with me, I have what I need..or I should say who I need. Maybe I do need medicine. Blah.

Everything is a shame these days, doll. Maybe I can fix it with a few more pet names. What do you say to that sweetheart? I'd call it this state of mind beautiful on you. You never really could catch a hint. Maybe I'll try some other time.


Brittnie and Demar are in love. It's a fact.

Isn't is sad when the happy things arn't even the truth? I could think back to many times when you lied. Yes, those were some of my happiest days. But I'm not wasting my time, that would just satisfy you. Wouldn't it, sugar?

Sorry to anyone who read this post....I'm in the weirdest mood ever.

[edit] I need a new lj layout. ;)
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